An Experience. To what end? The Spiritual Being of Love and Light manifested into physical form. Why would such a Being do this? Can you even fathom what it would be like to be pure Energy, pure Love? All the other individualizations of the One all experiencing the same. Enter the physical realm. Be “Born”. Live. Experience. Grow/Expand. Find yourSelf. Fall back into Love. Well. I guess to put it mildly, I am more referring to Me here, but not everyone wants to have the same experience. Some feel MORE by the suffering incurred upon them, which makes them appreciate the Love/Light they are even more. And then there’s Me. I did suffer. Mostly self-induced in retrospect. It seemed like I was always one step away from my Awakening. Something would always “happen” though. Some tragedy or travesty, some “whatever” that would send me back down the levels of consciousness. I finally got through to the physical vessel which carries Me. We are Spirit of The One Source and we will continue on in this Eternal Moment when the physical is no more.
The “Smile” is something that the Voice suggested that I do not talk about, I haven’t. and don’t plan on it. Writing about it is something different and apparently…OK.
“I Am a Smile” is one of the many I Am phrases I say each morning. As a matter of fact, one day I noticed in the mirror, I was (in a resting facial expression) a smile waiting to happen. I came to the realization that it wasn’t just the physical Me smiling, it was my Soul smiling at the Universe. And here is the thing the Voice suggested not bringing up in the thousand conversations I have had in the past year…I see the Universe smiling back at me. Where? Everywhere. Clouds. Smudge marks. Indecipherable lines on a table converging (as my cosmic eyes have sharpened) into a pleasant countenance. The list is endless. Not important. Maybe the How or Why are. The Reflection. The Universe (God) is like a mirror, acknowledging, smiling back. It was a little strange at first. I quickly became accustomed to it. Even now in this moment as I write, I look over at my moldavite stone crystal and see a smile as plain as a sunny day. Beautiful.
It is a liberating feeling in knowing that Time does not exist. Well. It does and it doesn’t. The human mind created it. A need to measure duration. Beginnings & Endings. So in that sense “Time” is real. We are creators in the exact likeness of God. That being said, I know that Time is not real. It’s a Feeling. The Feeling that all there is IS this Moment. An Eternal Moment without end and which never began. Paradoxical, I know. Contradictory, sure. A Gut Feeling, you bet. Everything in the past is gone and yet kept alive as much as we want in our own minds. The future is a series of moments that we haven’t reached yet. Forever is Eternally Now. The Moment that never ends, the Moment that never begins. The Moment that just always IS.
I just had no idea. No clue. What is/was love? I never truly knew until I fell in Love with mySelf. It’s the Greatest Love in this physical reality. “You’re OK.” “I kind of like you.” “You’re cool…I guess.” Those are the kind of things I would think or feel. After the Shift, something dawned on me. I Loved Me. It’s this love that gave me the strength to let my girlfriend, Eiris, go. I do LOVE her. I came to realize it was different though. It wasn’t fair to her or myself to keep the relationship going (her in Germany and me back stateside). It wasn’t in my mind at the time, almost a year ago, but it began to take shape and form recently. “She” is out there. She is looking for me as well. Well. I guess “looking” kind of doesn’t describe “it”. Waiting. A Waiting. Waiting for that moment when we are in alignment. When that moment comes, we will be walking next to each other all of the sudden and realize we have always been walking next to each other. When? Good question. Whenever the moment of alignment occurs. A day? Maybe a couple months. 10yrs. Who knows with these things…
It is a direction our Sun is taking us through this Galaxy. We’ve made this trip before. Well. Not us personally. Personally, we see ourselves traveling around the Sun 365 days a year. The Sun is a Traveler as well and we are along for the ride. It actually has something to do with how I “woke up” as if in a deep sleep. And the Sun continues on a course it knows so well and yet unchartered waters for our 3D forms (Body/Mind). The Spirit aspect already KNOWS and continues its waiting for The Next Moment. What is “this” Eternity we are heading toward? I do not know anything specific whatsoever. A Feeling. We are heading into Something Wonderful. The closer we get, the stronger I feel. There has been the New Feeling as of late. Thanks to the Universe directing me back to Christian D. Larson, I rediscovered Poise and Power and finally read the book after owning it for almost a year. I seemed to be content with listening to the first four chapters on youtube. Finally. I was ready. This incredible strength that had been growing and growing, combined with the Peace that was re-experienced a year ago was developing and molding into this This Poise. I had a name for it now. Poise. But even now as I am giving consideration to this word, I know it is changing and Growing into More. Whatever the “more” is, I’m not sure there is an earthly/human word to describe It. Maybe that is why I am here. Maybe that was why the Voice told me to begin writing this story. I am heading into Eternity. Eternity is Now. Forever.
I got away. Here. Not that there was any pressure getting to me. There was none. The Voice spoke, I Listened, and here I am. A Get-Away weekend with Nature. I have met a few cats, a couple peacocks, a deer, some wildflowers, trees, birds (some high gliding birds of prey as well), and of course the Lake. A Get-Away, not a run away, more like “getting back to the basics”. Writing. Reading new things (The Great Within, Tao te Ching), reconnecting with old, which are like NEW all over again (Your Forces and How to Use Them, The Pathway of Roses). It’s been raining. Good Nature Nourishment. Was looking for a sunny sunrise over the lake but there is always tomorrow. It’s fine. Everything is happening as it is Happening. The Sun has not gone anywhere.
And there It IS. Harmony. A True Balance of the aspects of Physicality, Mentality, Spirituality. To continually achieve Harmony, you have to what I call Tending Your Garden. Daily. Gardens need nurturing else they will not flourish. You give it water, fertilizer, pull the weeds. Pulling the weeds is vital unless you would like your garden overtaken. Hence, FREE Will. A choice that the Majority choose not to keep a prosperous garden. Oh they may take care to keep a beautiful body, but the soul is in despair and ugly things permeate the mind. Maybe great attention is given to soulful prayers with determined faith and conviction but…they care little for what they ingest into their body, their temple, and have let themselves go.
Feed and nourish ALL THREE ASPECTS DAILY and you will find Balance, Peace, and Harmony.