In the Shift I have been full of analogies. I remember a few months ago when something had dawned on me (I always love those Dawns when they come by). Around May 2013 (much earlier than the aforementioned “dawning”), I realized that I had been this fish, always struggling to swim upstream, fight the current, make my way up the river. Such was my life. The struggle. BUT! I was a decent swimmer and didn’t have too many problems. The problems that came were when I struck something in the river, a rock, another fish (finding myself in a serious problem in life that I couldn’t handle), and then get swept downstream until I could regain my senses and begin my swim back up the river again. Against the current. When the huge challenges presented themselves I lost balance. Dealing with Life as The Struggle. So a few months after the Shift, I realized that I was no longer fighting the current. I had turned around and began swimming with the river. Going with the Flow so to speak, in a literal and figurative sense. As time went on and this poise and power began to grow within me, I had that “dawning” moment a few months ago. I was NOT the fish swimming down the river with the current/flow…I Am the River. I Create the Flow. I Am Creating the Flow.
I love those moments and like I said, am so full of analogies. I began to picture something else. Something New. I likened to call it The Reverse Snowball Effect. It occurred to me how when I would start a new workout program, or a new project (a new anything), I would tend to overdo it. I would be at the top of the hill as the little snowball and then come rolling down wildly out of control, growing bigger, and smashing everything in my path until…crash. Project complete. Forever. More than likely unfinished as well and in shambles haha. So living the life I lead now, in the New, in my Journey, the dawnings continue. Something very profound occurred to me on a run one day. I was hitting this hill and began to do as I always do…pick up speed and momentum. I got to the top and started down the other side and realized…going downhill does not feel natural. It’s awkward and clumsy, and I have to slow down due to the awkward nature of running downhill. I remembered a small but very important line at the end of Chapter X in Christian D. Larson’s, Your Forces and How to Use Them, found right here actually:
The optimist lives under a clear sky; the pessimist lives in a fog. The pessimist hesitates, and loses both time and opportunity; the optimist makes the best use of everything now, and builds himself up, steadily and surely, until all adversity is overcome and the object in view realized. The pessimist curbs his energies and concentrates his whole attention upon failure; the optimist gives all his thought and power to the attainment of success, and arouses his faculties and forces to the highest point of efficiency. The pessimist waits for better times, and expects to keep on waiting; the optimist goes to work with the best that is at hand now, and proceeds to create better times. The pessimist pours cold water on the fires of his own ability; the optimist adds fuel to those fires. The pessimist links his mind to everything that is losing ground; the optimist lives, thinks and works with everything that is determined to press on. The pessimist places a damper on everything; the optimist gives life, fire and go to everything. The optimist is a building force; the pessimist is always an obstacle in the way of progress. The pessimist lives in a dark, soggy unproductive world, the optimist lives in that mental sunshine that makes all things grow.
The Optimist is a Building Force. I thought of that, and I had the image of the snowball going uphill. Steadily, surely, perpetually, growing in size and strength. Physically, Mentally, and Spiritually. Regulated and in control. All three of the aspects that I continue to cultivate and develop daily. I Am You, and You are the Snowball as well. Which way will you roll? Choice. I love it.