Jane

So I would like to introduce……….Jane…and how I came to believe in the whole psychic/medium world as a Fact and not a foo foo. Back in May 2013, I am doing my “work” (allowing the Universe to guide me) for the weekend and go to the mall at this one hippie type store, Romancing the Stone (lotsa stories and synchronicities here at this place, but will stick to Jane).  So I end up getting this really cool salt stone lamp, and they are buy one get another 50% off type deal.  The “other” does not have to be the same item but similar in price.  So it didn’t take me long and grabbed this GIANT painting of an ocean wave (Japanese).  I was like there is no way this is going in my place (I already had all the walls filled with paintings etc) and the Voice (in my head), GET IT.  So I got it.  Went to see my masseuse for some healing hands after leaving the mall and she was talking and talking and mentioned something about a local psychic/medium who did this group session and how she (this lady) singled out a friend of hers who was not even supposed to be there but happened to show up etc.  The Voice was like, Yes you must explore this.  I was like……….Ok.  So I asked her about the psychic, and she couldn’t remember her name but she had friended her FB page and we would check it after the session.  We both forgot.  Later that night when I remembered, I did a search and this lady, Jane, was the only one that stood out in my local area (small city).  Didn’t want to go any kind of FB route (done with FB) but she had a website as well.  I sent her an email and found she wrote me back when I awoke the next morning, Sunday.  After my Sunday morning “work” (prayer, meditation, affirmation/juicing/backwards planning my meals for the week) was done, I called her.  Ended up going to see her THAT day at 6pm.  I knew I would.  So I had this thought in my head after I got off the phone with her.  If she says something about this one thing that NO ONE knows about that I kept to myself then she is the REAL DEAL.  So I get to her place and she apologized as she just moved in.  Like literally a couple days ago.  So we start talking and hitting things off on a positive note. I had no idea why I was really there, just going with the Flow, and I explained what had been happening to me (the Shift etc).  So we are just going to do this tarot card reading and see where we end up, and then IT HAPPENED.  She looks up and says, “What’s wrong with your knee?”.  I started laughing, my mind was glowing pleasant flames, and pointed at her and said, “Oh yeah, You’re Good” haha.  My knee has (HAD!) been injured since the Army Marathon a month prior, I told her.  I just never made a big deal out of it.  I was Mr Positive now.  Keeping my runs to not much over three miles worked out well, but going over that, I can experience what would be something that was not pleasant, but it went away as soon as I stopped running.  She told me that it wasn’t my pain and to “let it go”.  She first mentioned very briefly at that time about being an empath but I just didn’t really let it sink in.  So I told myself though…not my pain.  Got it.  By next Saturday, on what used to be my long run, my knee was……….Healed.  I just didn’t know it yet.  The Voice said run farther.  I did.  I was Fine.  Mind blown.  Not done though.  She identified a few other significant things but this is already going to be a book enough, best to hit the highlights.  I spoke of my triathlon training and how swimming was my hardest event [My Arm] and then she spoke about how much she LOVED the water and had this affinity for the ocean and it was here where I started to feel a stirring.  I was intrigued and she gave me her business card (ocean waves) and I was like ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……an Aha moment………”I have something that belongs to you, and by the look of things, you are starting off with a clean slate…”  Her walls were bare.  So I told her about the painting, and later that night I emailed her a pic of it.  She didn’t know what to say.  I think she did, but she was holding back haha.  You CANNOT PLAN on something like that!  I got that painting BEFORE I even knew that my Higher Self was going to direct me to her with my masseuse convo!  You know?  So back to a little more psychic-ness.  In the tarot reading, she saw a dark haired woman with her head slightly turned, it was a powerful image she said.  The tarot card was a beautiful angel but I forget the word that was on it.  And for myself, I am trying to take it all in.  And then something hit me.  The painting in my bedroom above my bed.  The one that struck me so many months ago and I didn’t know what to do with it until the Shift in my life took place.  I showed it to her but it didn’t strike any bells.  Later on, after we were finished, I was getting ready to leave and something made me want to show her a picture of my grandmother.  She had mentioned THEM earlier when I first arrived, but we were not doing a “medium” reading.  They came in shortly after me, and asked me, who the ladies were?  My mom and grandma I told her…..Wow………she said my grandmother has a very powerful presence, not to take away from my mom’s power and love, BUT she IS my mom’s mom haha.  I felt compelled to SHOW her this pic that I took weeks earlier (on my phone) of her high school graduation picture.  And then it ALL started to make sense…  She looks at me and says, that’s her!  The woman that was slightly looking away she saw earlier.  And then the Voice was like look at your bedroom again (my picture on my phone)……….  In that moment, I realized that the way the painting was, the location of it in my room…it wasn’t a picture of a beautiful woman looking away, it is a picture of a Beautiful Woman watching over me.  My Grandmother.  On my way driving home leaving Jane’s, I had an Experience.  We’ll leave it at that.  Goes beyond description typing will allow.  I was not done with Jane though.  I made an appointment to come back, for one, to deliver a painting that didn’t belong to me, and another as I was curious about a couple things…My mom and grandma.  Before this psychic reading, I had a picture blown up in a frame in my office of my grandma, and I would stare at her, into her eyes and think how cool she looked, and what was going on with her then, she must have had dreams for the future.  I mean not to make light of the life she made, marriage and kids, but staring at the girl who graduated high school.  Her Dreams………My mom.  I always knew there was something WRONG between her and my uncle (her only brother).  Something HAPPENED, and I never knew what.  These are the types of things I was looking for from Jane and found.  I didn’t even have to ask the questions to Jane.  She started for me.  Ruth, my grandma, wanted to be a dancer, like classical dancing…ballet.  She just was living in the wrong time and place.  Never regretted her life though, loved her husband, her family.  Jean, my mom, had what I can imagine a terrifying experience as a young girl.  My uncle and his friend sneaking into her room at night.  Stressed she was not raped, but more than likely touched inappropriately.  In the moment of the reading I got the feeling we were not talking about just a one-time incident but the FEELING was this happened probably several times.  Did not want me to be mad at him.  So.  Now I know.  I also Know that they are with me and when I used to “joke” about always being good because my grandma and mom were watching over my shoulder………………..it was not a joke after all. I went to Las Vegas for the first time in August 2013 with my best friend, O (Army Captain who just came home from her second deployment), virtually my only friend, and Soul Sister.  Six years now since we became friends in Germany and the friendship/bond continues.  So Vegas……….a LOT DID HAPPEN there BUT this was on the plane ride back.  I met someone.  A Connection was made (LONG story there).  The next day I was………..a wreck of sorts.  SOMETHING happened.  I was in this constant state of euphoria and sadness.  I couldn’t shake it!!!  So happy!  So sad!!!!!  At the same time!  After Vegas I flew to Georgia where O is stationed and I just couldn’t snap out of it.  She had never seen me like this before.  Heck!  I had never seen me like this!  Why am I feeling this!!?!?!  I had all kinds of thoughts and notions, which the core of it was…Did I meet my Soul Mate?!?!  Later that night the Voice said It’s OK, you will feel better tomorrow, and I did, still with strong lingering effects of………whatever that was.  We were walking down a street in Savanna when we saw a psychic/medium store and she was like, “Dude, let’s go in!  You’re into that sh*t!”  By this point in time, O knew everything that had been happening to me.  I was UNEASY about going in to see another psychic, and was like…”Maybe…..let’s walk more and we’ll see on our way back…”.  A little further down the road I get a text……..from JANE!  I’m like, “What the hell?!?!?”.  She NEVER texted me before.  She wanted me to know that she was going to be out of town and if I needed a reading it would have to be tomorrow………..Ok Jane.  You’re SPOOKY, I got you haha.  We did not go back.  I got home and sent her (Jane) an email, did not say anything about my experience.  I knew that I needed to see her though.  It was a couple weeks later that I finally got her.  I waited for it.  SHE brought up the girl in question.  She said, did you meet a woman recently?  Inside I am smiling, she is so good.  Yes, I did.  DO NOT TRUST HER.  I’m like, say what?  She has mental problems.  Like severe depression type of stuff.  And then………..I told her the story.  She just looked at me and gave me that Duh, you didn’t know(?) type expression and said very plainly, matter of fact(ly)…you’re an Empath, and your Third Eye….is Open.  Be careful etc etc.  So my mind is trying to digest this…I’m an empath (didn’t she tell me this before?).  Like I had an idea about an empath…feeling other people’s emotions and feelings, putting yourself in their place etc etc, plus a form of strong intuition that goes along with this gift.  So that CONNECTION I made with this girl really kicked in on the plane when she mentioned something to me that really garnered my FULL attention.  She told me about her twin sister who had died when she was 18.  20yrs ago.  And days away from the anniversary of her death.  She didn’t get to the HOW, and I didn’t press, but she felt a LOT of guilt about her death.  So…………the Connection.  Contact Made.  It wasn’t me.  It was her.  I took it in.  Those feelings……….unbelievable.   We were emailing/texting/a couple of phone calls for a while, just over a couple months, and eventually I told her what Jane said to me.  Her very first words were, “That bitch!”  I was stunned and then she laughed it off.  She admitted to me though that she was on medication for manic depressive…I was like, in my mind, Wow, makes sense then.  Eventually I let it go and let her go.  I do remember the point of contact on the airplane and had to refrain from expressing any type of surprise when I saw IT, but when I was staring at her it was like water and then a ripple effect or something that I called the warble effect around her face (just in front of?).  This warbling was by far one of the most bizarre things I had ever encountered. Eventually I moved to Texas, far and away from Jane, but it didn’t end.  Eventually we ended up doing some Skype sessions which were really cool.  Each time we did it, we would have a “visitor” try and speak through the microphone.  Could never make out what they were trying to say.  You know?  That white noise stuff?  Weird.  Anyway, there was one fundamental thing that Jane could not fully do, or more rather on a limited scope.  She really couldn’t tell me my future.  Some things she was a lock on, like Vegas (immediate future).  I do remember in a session she said, “Are you going on a trip next week where you might win a lot of money?”.  Bam.  On it, Jane.  She told me that I was going to win, but she really couldn’t say WHAT I would win………….So it’s been a while after that trip.  Did I win?  Yes.  I won Awareness, or rather, More Awareness of Who I Am.  I remember reading or watching a youtube clip and something about psychics really do not like to try and predict the future as it seems to have a way of…changing.  Like when we were Skyping almost one year ago this month for the first time since I had left and she said, “Oh!  You’re thinking about getting a kitten!”  All over it, Jane!  Yes!  I even had a kitten calendar to plant the seed further, BUT I was just waiting for more signs, and the kitten never entered my life.  The main thing with Jane was that she was able to tell me about things that recently happened to me, within a week, a couple days, or was currently in progress of happening, and then the sometimes the “what will happen” if it was a fixed event that was immutable(?) or unlikely to change…….in the very near future. So now I’m going to end this way too long and over the top blog entry with something that just happened this past weekend.  Something ALWAYS happens in my life these days, some weirder than others, but this one was a bit strange………and nothing to do with the subject title of “Jane” haha.  You know……..this blog entry was supposed to be easy!  I was going to write some stuff about Proactive living as opposed to Reactive……..but then I was guided to do this impromptu Jane bit…….and my bit. I had my alarm set for 0313 this past Sunday (I was in bed by 7 Sat night haha ) and it went off just fine, but I had this really incredible dream that I was just lying there trying to figure out what happened…My head ached.  Not A “headache” but the left front part of my brain just was like I dunno like a dull thud…..now the Voice in my head was like **yaaawn**, You know what’s going to happen if you just lay here trying to go over your dream….your gonna fall asleep, BUT I was like, Yes, I know, and if I do then I am sure I will wake up soon…I was getting close, it was like almost an “Aha” and “No Sh*t” moment…….BUT THEN three minutes later (0316)!  ***ring ring!!!***  Did I fall asleep?  My phone?  Ringing?  A late night prankster?  No!  My First Sergeant!  I THINK I may have dosed off a little and felt like I was so close to figuring something out but I instantly woke up completely (MUST be an EMERGENCY! Soldier in the hospital, SOMETHING!) and forgot about trying to go over the dream immediately………. Me: Yes!?!?  1SG!?!  My alarm just went off right before you called, what a “coincidence”!  (I could hear some rustling noise, some mumbling voice…) 1SG!?!  1SG!?!?!?  Is everything Ok?!? 1SG:  (groggy voice) Sir?  I think I must have accidently ghost dialed you……..(very groggy) Me: (excited because he wasn’t calling because of a Soldier being hurt!)    1SG!  This is perfect timing!  Look, put me on speaker phone and we can start one of my Super Soul Sundays together! He laughed, mumbled he would see me on Tuesday (Holiday Monday).  Accidently ghost dialed me?  Really.   You know I have long left the idea of chance, coincidence, and accidents far behind.  They do not exist in my world.  Soooooooooo somehow, the Universe found a way to not only get my ass up and moving but………….I had completely forgotten that dream.  I cannot remember one tiny part of it, and it was a DOOZY.  I was however left with this dull achey head throb for several hours afterward though. So I remembered to bring it up at work on Tuesday and he laughed.  “Crazy, sir!”  I’m like yeah crazy.  So explain to me how you managed to enter your four digit passcode and accidently ghost dial me.  Two phones sitting on his night stand.  Gov’t IPhone and his personal IPhone………reached over in his sleep, punched in his code, called me until he could hear me shouting on the other end where he started to “snap out of it”.  He has no idea. Crazy?  Interesting.  Something happened Saturday night/Sunday morning in my dream world and even as I type this I remember what the Voice said earlier in the week……..Forget about it. It’s almost like, someone was whispering to 1SG to call me, sleep makes us very susceptible to the power of suggestion………interesting stuff.  Anyway, yeah I know, crazy, why are you getting up at three in the morning on Sunday?  Yeah.  Hah.  Actually?  That is “sleeping in” on the weekends for me…by two hours haha. So!  My apologies for this out of the ordinary entry!  For whatever reason in the Universe, I am dropping this pebble and creating a ripple effect……..as in All Things We Do.  I’ll probably go the route of how I tend my Garden next time (which is Me).  Only four more entries left and then……….We move on 😉

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