What a great privilege it has been this past year in opening up. After this month, a new chapter begins in my life and new Doors to be Opened. I wasn’t sure how I was going to close this moment out but I recently heard someone joking about the movie flop of 50 Shades of Grey. I knew I wanted to discuss a little about Infinity and the Blue (Energy). For the past couple of months I have had 616 on the brain and didn’t know why until now. Instead of the 20th of the month, this blog ends on the 16th. Who knows with these things.
In 1992, shortly after I joined the Marines, I got my first tattoo. The other guys I went with were out of their mind gung-ho oorah and wanting everything from a big giant eagle, globe, and anchor, to an M16 toting Tasmanian Devil with USMC written underneath. I just wasn’t feeling it. It needed to mean something…More. Something discrete. There it was. The yin-yang. The size of a quarter placed on my left shoulder. What I had no idea was that in doing that, I sent myself on a path of trying to achieve balance for the next 20 years. Never quite getting there. One step forward. Three steps back. In 2013, I finally achieved it. Balance. To make a long story shorter, after eight months another Shift happened. It was like a drumbeat in my head. No matter what, I couldn’t shake it. The Infinity symbol. I Knew I had to put it on me. I just didn’t know why and why it had to be a particular shade of blue…a blending of blues…not quite teal, not quite aquamarine……Something Bluish. I knew it was going to compliment the yin-yang on my left shoulder by going on my right. I’m not much of a tattoo guy as I’m more partial to the Richie Cunningham side of life so I figured I would just go to the mall to get it done. I went and they were packed, so I strolled over to my magical synchronistic store, Romancing the Stone (I think I mentioned in the Jane blog). One of the regular girls that worked there came walking up right away with a big smile, greeted me, and was like, Guess what!?!, I got a new tattoo! Pointed down to her foot…the infinity symbol with the word love in it. I laughed and pulled the picture out of my pocket of the tattoo likeness I was looking to get for myself. It was her turn to laugh. I never mentioned anything about getting an infinity tattoo before. The other girl working there came over as well and filled her in on the “synchronistic moment”. She asked me where I was going to get it done and when I said here at the mall she adamantly shook her head No. She has a lot of tats. She told me to go to Shine On and ask for Frank. I did. He began to apply the blue and said he was adding his own blue touch to it…I was like…Perfect. I felt as though the Universe was working through him for exactly what I needed.
It was five months ago when it really fully hit me. The Resonance. I wrote that several months ago about the seemingly magical effect on water with verbal affirmations, music, and written words. It was five months ago that I had to visit a Soldier in the hospital who had been diagnosed with Lymphoma. I only had a few minutes with him in that initial encounter but I saw something that gave me one of my biggest Aha Moments in a while. He raised his left arm to grab something and I saw his tattoo. Inside of the left bicep, one word. HATE. Fat letters, and the deepest black color you can imagine. Fresh. Brand new. 19 years old and did not make it through his 7th week of basic training. This cancer apparently came very fast, virtually out of nowhere. The Aha Moment rang through though. Immediately.
Messages to Water. Us. Symbols and words placed on our water sac bodies. The body’s response. My struggle for balance for 20yrs until I finally Pushed Through. The profound Infinite Balance in my Life. The Messages I gave to the Physical Body and the Body responding in kind to those symbols.
The cancer ravaging a young man’s body after sending the message of hate coursing through him. How else could the body respond to something so vile, so ugly…How else?
Why Blue. We’ll make that a statement and not a question. It’s funny. I actually cannot be too specific on that. Even though I have Opened Up here in this Safe Haven forum of words, there are some things that I need to keep close to the vest. I can say that the Blue is a part of Me. Surrounds me. Works with and through me. Infinitely.
Someday. Someday when this mortal shell fades away…My Eyes Will Open Once Again.
Live in the Light, My Friends.
BenGi, a Guardian