Hi there! I felt the need to highlight something that I glossed over / overlooked when I was writing my ReNewal (3) blog post. I was on my run this morning and doing as I do, I either reflect on the past, look forward to the future, and also enjoy the moment I am in (particularly breathing, Love It). So, I was reflecting on my 2013 “Awakening” / Shifting year and feeling the gratitude that encompasses it all. But I remembered a Crucial Key that I just breezed right over in that aforementioned blog post. There was something else in the background at that time and dawned on me this morning. I wrote how I was comfortable with the idea of giving up the “dream job” being a general’s aide in order to assist my incoming boss who was panicking that I was leaving, and he would be left to fend alone. There WAS something else. My Soul Sister was deployed to Afghanistan beginning the summer of 2012. It was strange being on the other end of sending letters and care packages as opposed to receiving them whilst downrange. She was always in the forefront of my mind in wishing her well, praying for her safe return. She was coming back at the end of July 2013 and was going to be on leave for quite a while. She had this amazing week planned where we would meet up in Las Vegas and really paint the town. There was one small problem with this plan though. When I got the job as the general’s aide, I would NOT be going on the dream vacation / reunion with my sister. I would be at a general’s beck and call. I knew she would be incredibly disappointed and so would have I, even double so as I am on the more empathic side picking up her disappointment on top of my own. Law of Attraction-wise…I know that deep deep down I would have wanted to see her again after being separated for more than a year rather than getting that dream job that I knew was mine. In the blog, ReNewal (3), I got the word that I didn’t get the position, felt the relief wash over me and an eagerness to Get to Work for my new boss………and put in my leave papers to go to Las Vegas to be with my sister. On the run this morning, I realized what my Heart truly wanted to do. Be together again with my best friend and see her with my own eyes knowing that she was back home. Safe and sound. She truly was the Crucial Key to get me to my REAL dream job in San Antonio later that year. Amazing!
A few months ago, I was guided to participate in a local Meetup. This Meetup’s focus was on gathering together to create a vision board. Utilizing the Law of Attraction, the vision board we create will help focus our intentions on becoming a reality. For myself, this gathering was more of “getting out there” and trying something new, plus meeting new like-minded (Law of Attraction) people. I really didn’t have anything in mind of what I wanted to attract into my life aside from what I already have. But fortunately, I was able to find just the right magazines to hone in on that. My Vision can be summed up straight down the center of the board where: My Vision Starts Here. Love Above All; Inside Joy (with a mirror next to it to reflect my Joy and continuously have that Joy reflected back to me); FAITH. After I had that I was pretty much done…except it just looked so empty on the sides. The side worked which intended to be just “window dressing” actually happened to fit in Just Right. Exactly what I needed.
It was slightly embarrassing towards the end when we went around the table to discuss what we came up with. Folks were looking to attract piles of money, romance, exotic vacations, beautiful homes etc, and then, me 😊. It wasn’t really embarrassing for me, but I could Feel some uncomfortable energy coming from others. I could Feel a little embarrassment of their (in their mind) selfish “wantings”. After feeling that unexpected energy, I felt a need to elaborate a little more. The feeling of internal Personal Happiness will by default, naturally Attract the things you want most out of life. I felt a little better after that. Lighter. The mood got less dense and hopefully I just created some Inspiration on another’s Journey.
Peace and Blessings!
“What now?”, I’m thinking. What now. I accomplished my year long once a month blog from 2014-2015 on notions I was having post-Shift. Time went by until I retired almost a year ago this month. Technically it was 1 Aug 18, but if you have leave days accrued you can use them leading up to your actual retirement date. I had about 36 days I believe… I knew I was going to finally write about what led me into the Shift, which I accomplished in ReNewal. Moved onto my Canyon Lake Retreat and private words written in a journal from 2014. Done. Something popped into my mind about the UFO phenomena which brought us to Unidentified. Moments have passed by until this moment in contemplation. I believe that most individuals have at least some general theme on WordPress, right? I mean for the most part. You write about what you love and something that you can identify with. Who you are. Who am I.
That is always such a brilliant question. I never have liked being put in a box and labeled though. I am a Marine (established the significant amount of discipline I bring). I am a Soldier (defined me for the last 10yrs until retirement). I am a Runner (since my first marathon in 1993, Marine Corps Marathon in DC, to my next one in McAllen, TX this Jan 2020). I am an INFJ (never heard of the Myers-Briggs test until my senior military training as a major and found myself as “this” personality trait). I am an Empath (“wow” and “of course”, it all made sense after coming to the realization in 2013). I am a Roller Skater (since I was 7yrs old and still jammin’ on). I guess one of the overarching ones is, I am a Mind-Body-Spirit Enthusiast (a phrase I started using a couple years ago when I had to write an “introduction” card about myself for a boss that was introducing me to the section I began working at…list your hobbies, which I summed up into MBS E)…
I am, we are, so many things. Figuring out who I am is not really of any benefit to you, and especially not to me as I know who I am. I would like to create some Value Added and utilize the prefix in benefit, ben, root meaning, good. It helps that my name actually is Ben I suppose. How can my words be Good for you? I don’t know, like maybe verbal vitamins of a sort. My (Soul) sisters think I should start a YouTube channel and be like a Tony Robbins motivational type speaker. To that I say I am not quite Feeling it. I mean I can sum up a lot of what I would have to say in, “the answers you are looking for are already inside you…” Then again, most people are very focused on the external. I can help to light a path on a new direction I suppose, but right now, a YouTube channel is not the way to go for me.
Think, Ben, think. Better yet, Feel. I tend to do a lot better when writing from the Heart as opposed to the head. So, I want to bring out something that connects us all right here and now…our humanity. I love being a human, and I love living on this gorgeous lifeform we call Earth. Countries divide each other as do ethnicities etc. So much division and so much hate. Racism. I was Blessed to have two wonderful Souls raise me, mom and grandma, and never knew of bigotry. I was aware of it and more so as the years went on but that was something that I just couldn’t understand. My understanding of it now is that a great number are still asleep while thinking they are awake. A big difference between being awake and Awake.
This WordPress site was created as I continue to Live in the Light, and so that must be the “theme” to be expressed. As I Live in the Light, I Shine my Light out toward You…
I was reading an article not too long ago that flowed back into my mind this morning. Human beings are virtually 99.9% identical when it comes to our DNA. The idea of ethnic cleansing from one race over another race is extremely sad. Especially when we are the same. The very thing that divides so many on our planet is the ONE thing that should be Uniting us. We Are Human Beings. The importance of being good and kind to others is so fundamental. If we want to elevate the energy on this planet to a Loving state then we must elevate those around us, and they elevate those around them, and so on and so on…
A Star Trek future is within our grasp. A United Planet, united with other planets. Too cool. Yet…we CAN reach out to this potential future through our Will and Desire. Who am I? I am a child of the cosmos. I am a Citizen of the Universe.
Please join me and Always look on the Bright Side 😊
An Experience. To what end? The Spiritual Being of Love and Light manifested into physical form. Why would such a Being do this? Can you even fathom what it would be like to be pure Energy, pure Love? All the other individualizations of the One all experiencing the same. Enter the physical realm. Be “Born”. Live. Experience. Grow/Expand. Find yourSelf. Fall back into Love. Well. I guess to put it mildly, I am more referring to Me here, but not everyone wants to have the same experience. Some feel MORE by the suffering incurred upon them, which makes them appreciate the Love/Light they are even more. And then there’s Me. I did suffer. Mostly self-induced in retrospect. It seemed like I was always one step away from my Awakening. Something would always “happen” though. Some tragedy or travesty, some “whatever” that would send me back down the levels of consciousness. I finally got through to the physical vessel which carries Me. We are Spirit of The One Source and we will continue on in this Eternal Moment when the physical is no more.
I just had no idea. No clue. What is/was love? I never truly knew until I fell in Love with mySelf. It’s the Greatest Love in this physical reality. “You’re OK.” “I kind of like you.” “You’re cool…I guess.” Those are the kind of things I would think or feel. After the Shift, something dawned on me. I Loved Me. It’s this love that gave me the strength to let my girlfriend, Eiris, go. I do LOVE her. I came to realize it was different though. It wasn’t fair to her or myself to keep the relationship going (her in Germany and me back stateside). It wasn’t in my mind at the time, almost a year ago, but it began to take shape and form recently. “She” is out there. She is looking for me as well. Well. I guess “looking” kind of doesn’t describe “it”. Waiting. A Waiting. Waiting for that moment when we are in alignment. When that moment comes, we will be walking next to each other all of the sudden and realize we have always been walking next to each other. When? Good question. Whenever the moment of alignment occurs. A day? Maybe a couple months. 10yrs. Who knows with these things…