How in the heck can a speed bump ever be ironic? I’m just baffled and laughing at myself.
Yesterday morning, the cool and slightly interesting thing that I noticed while heading back home on my run was this one particular moment that I was able to witness. Two cars both going in opposite directions. Yet somehow they both manage to hit this speed bump at the exact same time. What was fascinating was that the one car on their way out of the community did not even pause a beat when they hit the speed bump. Literally just flew right over it. The other car was incredibly slow and cautious and rightfully so! It’s a pretty decent bump! They were driving a sedan and the other speedy person was in some type of sport utility vehicle.
After I witnessed that moment, the gears were turning in my mind. One of those metaphor moments where some people do not let anything impede their progress while others take things maybe a little too hesitantly. I had this whole conversation with myself about it for the next 10 minutes or so. After I got home though, I thought, naw, who needs to hear about the speed bumps that life throws at you. At least that is until this morning.
I have a marathon coming up in January (a week after I turn 50, yeehaw!) and so I’ve been expanding my run route in my community to roads that I do not normally run on. Saturday is the long run day, so I was going to do what I did last weekend but add a little more. No biggie. So, I am running this morning, haven’t even hit one mile yet and heading down this “new” road which I just expanded on last weekend. Very dark, streetlamps are out. Suddenly…BAM! Foot hits something and I start to stumble forward and I am like, You have got to be kidding me!!! I just tripped over this exact speed bump one week ago and told myself, in that moment, not gonna happen next week! But I did! I couldn’t help myself but to laugh. ESPECIALLY after my whole speed bump viewing scenario the morning before on a different street! How ironic.
I know I’m going to let this simmer in the back of my mind for the rest of the day as far as the message to myself. What is the universe trying to tell me?
Sometimes you must be cautious, sometimes you need to plow right through no matter the obstacle, and sometimes you just get tripped up no matter what. OR maybe that is a road that I never should go down ever again.
Hmmm. You hit a bump in the road of life that comes at you unexpectedly and almost miserably fall. The next time you willingly go down that same road again and the exact thing happens to you. Maybe you are looking to fall…Don’t.
I dunno. They are just speed bumps. Probably thinking too deeply again haha. On another slightly humorous note…there are no Speed Bump Ahead signs in my community.
Hi there! I felt the
need to highlight something that I glossed over / overlooked when I was writing
my ReNewal (3) blog post. I was on my
run this morning and doing as I do, I either reflect on the past, look forward
to the future, and also enjoy the moment I am in (particularly breathing, Love
It). So, I was reflecting on my 2013 “Awakening”
/ Shifting year and feeling the gratitude that encompasses it all. But I remembered a Crucial Key that I just
breezed right over in that aforementioned blog post. There was something else in the background at
that time and dawned on me this morning.
I wrote how I was comfortable with the idea of giving up the “dream job”
being a general’s aide in order to assist my incoming boss who was panicking
that I was leaving, and he would be left to fend alone. There WAS something else. My Soul Sister was deployed to Afghanistan
beginning the summer of 2012. It was
strange being on the other end of sending letters and care packages as opposed
to receiving them whilst downrange. She
was always in the forefront of my mind in wishing her well, praying for her
safe return. She was coming back at the
end of July 2013 and was going to be on leave for quite a while. She had this amazing week planned where we
would meet up in Las Vegas and really paint the town. There was one small problem with this plan
though. When I got the job as the
general’s aide, I would NOT be going on the dream vacation / reunion with my
sister. I would be at a general’s beck
and call. I knew she would be incredibly
disappointed and so would have I, even double so as I am on the more empathic
side picking up her disappointment on top of my own. Law of Attraction-wise…I know that deep deep
down I would have wanted to see her again after being separated for more than a
year rather than getting that dream job that I knew was mine. In the blog, ReNewal (3), I got the word that
I didn’t get the position, felt the relief wash over me and an eagerness to Get
to Work for my new boss………and put in my leave papers to go to Las Vegas to be
with my sister. On the run this morning,
I realized what my Heart truly wanted to do.
Be together again with my best friend and see her with my own eyes
knowing that she was back home. Safe and
sound. She truly was the Crucial Key to
get me to my REAL dream job in San Antonio later that year. Amazing!
Six years ago, and a few months into my Shift in Awareness, I became absorbed by the notion of infinity. I couldn’t shake it. I got infinity paintings and pictures, plus a very cool wooden sculpture. These things all led up to having the infinity symbol tattooed to my upper right shoulder. Christmas that year found me enjoying the holidays with my Soul Sisters and they ensured I had the perfect BenGi Santa hat to celebrate with. After I returned home, and was unpacking, Santa hat fell to the floor. I picked it up and the first thing I saw was my infinity sculpture. Really without thinking, I went over and placed the hat on the sculpture. Infinite Christmas, I thought. A constant reminder to enjoy and celebrate every single day. This Gift of Life we have on a continuous basis.
Over the next year, the sisters came to visit me every now
and then and remarked about how cool it was having Infinite Christmas around me
every day. It must have really struck an
elegant note with them as they had a very special pillow made for me. A Christmas present that following year. Little messages of what they thought made up Me. In the center of it, and in gold letters, Infinite Christmas. It is probably one of the Greatest Christmas
presents I ever received.
I guess my message is this:
Surround yourself with things that are a Reminder of this Gift of Life. It doesn’t have to be an Infinite
Christmas. Listen to your Heart. It will tell you how to honor your Life.
Because I live my life like a mirror, I reflect which I am most
enveloped by. I Choose to be surrounded
by beautiful and amazing things to include a Christmas without end.
The humor I mentioned much earlier…Well…It’s funny. A year ago, in May (2013 as this retreat was in 2014), I was on the early morning run, somewhere between 0430-0500, running down Flower Mound Rd in Lawton, OK when all of the sudden the Voice in my head said, “STOP.” I did. “Turn around.” I did. “Look up.” I did and saw the vastness of space, and the stars and…what the…? A star flashed brightly. Perplexed I started to turn around, but I looked again, FLASH <again!>. Incredible. I was astonished but felt good, safe. I was about to start running but had this thought. I have some kind of star map app on my phone. Held it up and gave the star that flashed a name. Alderamin. Never heard of it. Anyway, this all doesn’t sound all that funny but a couple weeks later, about the same time of the morning, different road, the Voice said, “STOP, look up…” I’m like, OK? I see stars! That’s it? When all of the sudden over my headphones I hear, “CAPTAIN, INCOMING MESSAGE!” (Mr. Worf from Star Trek, incoming text/email sound byte). And then what I felt/heard…Laughter. Like someone was playing a cosmic prank on me! Funny. (There is a lot of them but just hitting a couple of the biggies) A few months later at my friend/soul sister’s apartment just after the whole Beth Episode (maybe some other day) and was walking from her bathroom back to the living room (barefoot), thinking about Beth, a strange quirky smile and this indescribable FEELING and…SPLAT. Walked right onto Sushi or Snoopy’s dog poo. Heard the Laughter again. There IS this playful sense of humor in the Universe which has fun with us all the time and when you are tuned in, you can laugh too 😀
There is never goodbye.
Just till the next moment. My Moment
at Canyon Lake is moving into the next moment.
It was Quiet. It was Fun. I Am Here to Have Fun. BUT. I
am also here to Help. A kind word here
and there. Ernest advice. An ear to Listen. A Smile…Infinitely
An Experience. To
what end? The Spiritual Being of Love
and Light manifested into physical form.
Why would such a Being do this?
Can you even fathom what it would be like to be pure Energy, pure
Love? All the other individualizations
of the One all experiencing the same.
Enter the physical realm. Be “Born”. Live. Experience. Grow/Expand.
Find yourSelf. Fall back into
Love. Well. I guess to put it mildly, I am more referring
to Me here, but not everyone wants to have the same experience. Some feel MORE by the suffering incurred upon
them, which makes them appreciate the Love/Light they are even more. And then there’s Me. I did suffer.
Mostly self-induced in retrospect.
It seemed like I was always one step away from my Awakening. Something would always “happen” though. Some tragedy or travesty, some “whatever”
that would send me back down the levels of consciousness. I finally got through to the physical vessel
which carries Me. We are Spirit of The
One Source and we will continue on in this Eternal Moment when the physical is
The “Smile” is something that the Voice suggested that I do
not talk about, I haven’t. and don’t plan on it. Writing about it is something different and
“I Am a Smile” is one of the many I Am phrases I say each
morning. As a matter of fact, one day I
noticed in the mirror, I was (in a resting facial expression) a smile waiting
to happen. I came to the realization
that it wasn’t just the physical Me smiling, it was my Soul smiling at the
Universe. And here is the thing the
Voice suggested not bringing up in the thousand conversations I have had in the
past year…I see the Universe smiling back at me. Where?
Everywhere. Clouds. Smudge marks.
Indecipherable lines on a table converging (as my cosmic eyes have
sharpened) into a pleasant countenance.
The list is endless. Not
important. Maybe the How or Why
are. The Reflection. The Universe (God) is like a mirror,
acknowledging, smiling back. It was a
little strange at first. I quickly became accustomed to it. Even now in this moment as I write, I look
over at my moldavite stone crystal and see a smile as plain as a sunny
It is a liberating feeling in knowing that Time does not
exist. Well. It does and it doesn’t. The human mind created it. A need to measure duration. Beginnings & Endings. So in that sense “Time” is real. We are creators in the exact likeness of
God. That being said, I know that Time
is not real. It’s a Feeling. The Feeling that all there is IS this Moment. An Eternal Moment without end and which never
began. Paradoxical, I know. Contradictory, sure. A Gut Feeling, you bet. Everything in the past is gone and yet kept
alive as much as we want in our own minds.
The future is a series of moments that we haven’t reached yet. Forever is Eternally Now. The Moment that never ends, the Moment that
never begins. The Moment that just