I got away. Here. Not that there was any pressure getting to me. There was none. The Voice spoke, I Listened, and here I am. A Get-Away weekend with Nature. I have met a few cats, a couple peacocks, a deer, some wildflowers, trees, birds (some high gliding birds of prey as well), and of course the Lake. A Get-Away, not a run away, more like “getting back to the basics”. Writing. Reading new things (The Great Within, Tao te Ching), reconnecting with old, which are like NEW all over again (Your Forces and How to Use Them, The Pathway of Roses). It’s been raining. Good Nature Nourishment. Was looking for a sunny sunrise over the lake but there is always tomorrow. It’s fine. Everything is happening as it is Happening. The Sun has not gone anywhere.
The Stillness within. The Serenity that is. I finally found mySelf about a year ago. Four months after The SHIFT. I had been feeling this Presence more and more profoundly. What is This? When finally, the Voice spoke up. This is Peace. I “knew” this Feeling. I remembered. It had been so long. Since I was a baby. The continuous distractions thrown at us forces us to forget as we struggle to “keep up” with the reality presented to us. Purifying my body, training my mind, allowed me to remember who I am. So, one day after having come to terms with the Stillness that was always there, lying in bed, I asked the question. THE QUESTION. Who Am I? The response came back with such profound depth and surety. I Am Good. The tears flowed immediately. It was something else that I forgot. I always knew I was good (as a little boy). I grew up and battled “the distractions”, the negatives. Amnesia followed. We have forgotten so much. Meditation is necessary. You need to allow time for your Self. Even if it is just allowing yourself to breathe. A daily connection to You. And Prayer. I am not religious. Spiritual. So, after several months of prayer and meditation I began to Feel something else stirring. When I asked about it the answer I received was…The Deep Faith.
Continuing in my second command in San Antonio, I received word that I made the list for major (something I definitely wanted). Also, a few months later, I found out that I was selected to be a resident at the Command General Staff College (CGSC) at Fort Leavenworth, Kansas (also known as ILE, Intermediate Level Education for “majors”). That was superb news. They only take about 50% of the promotables to attend there on the campus. The other half would have to take the online courses AND do their day job. I knew what I wanted way before that time came up and focused on being a resident. Living a higher vibrational frequency allowed me to manifest that goal easily. When I finally arrived there in July 2015, something dawned on me. I do not like school! Never have. It wasn’t until my shift in consciousness year of 2013 that I found I was more of a natural empath. Looking back on my life, especially adolescence, teen years spent in school made so much sense. I never felt like ME. I was too much of everyone else. I was the chameleon in school. Fit in everywhere with everyone yet belonged no where to anyone. That’s a rabbit hole I won’t go down right now. The point being is that I was going to be stuck for one year in “class” again with 15 of my peers. I never missed one day, unlike my childhood, however, it was very taxing on me. I really had to keep myself centered and grounded. Every morning before class I sat in my car for 5-10min and focused on a grounding meditation. The year passed by and I survived. Nothing substantial of note this year aside from kind of closing down my normal shining light which read, OPEN FOR BUSINESS. The thing that made me chuckle though when I first arrived at the campus was the huge statue/sculpture out front of the main building. A giant magic lamp, like as in Aladdin. I thought to the Universe, “You’re wish is my command…”
I was afforded an opportunity to pick where to go next. Well. Sort of. Two choices. I could go to Kuwait or I could go to South Korea. I did not hesitate to pick South Korea as I already had done the desert deal a couple times before (involuntarily). I was going to be a part of the Transformation Cell at Camp Humphreys for the garrison there. July 2016 through July 2017. Eventually that morphed into me working for the Department of Plans, Training, Mobilization, and Security, also known as DPTMS. DPTMS is a kind of like Operations for a garrison but to a greater extent. A year passed there with again nothing significant, aside from a psychopath detonating a nuclear weapon 300 miles away. Plus, I was not to keen on the idea of my President sending out scathing insults to the North Korean leader via Twitter. That was kind of nuts. It also helped cement the idea that when I came back home, I would make plans to retire.
I was so fortunate to have a branch, Field Artillery, that was willing to work with me on my retirement to such an extent that they gave me the opportunity to pick where I wanted to go. I had one condition though. I could not “NOT” retire. I told him I was planning on retiring on Texas and he suggested Fort Hood. He read my mind. Exactly where I wanted to retire and had a considerable reputation on helping pave the road for future retirees. They also ensured I was able to get another specialty job…DPTMS once again. So fortunate, so blessed to work with the individuals there. Most of whom were retired military and were now DACs (Department of the Army Civilians). I received so much guidance and advice that there was no way my retirement path would not go exactly how I wanted it to. It did. And then some. I had mentioned to some of them that I always felt a little bittersweet about being promoted to major. I was no longer Captain America! There was no such thing as Major America! I was wrong. Apparently, there is now with a giant framed picture they gave me. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Blown away with gratitude.
My official retirement date occurred 1 August but with the leave time that I had accrued, I was out of the Army by mid-June. The year of July 2017 through June 2018 I continued what I had started in 2013. Starting every morning with Gratitude, prayer, affirmations, followed by meditation. By holding myself in a continuous state of Positivity, I was able to ensure that I would retire with grace and ease.
Eight months later (where did the time go?), I find myself on Day 4 (today, 23 Feb 19) of my Hay House Mystical Connections Summit, and…and…well, hmmm, I guess you could say I am On Fire. From past lives, to creating your dream life, to connect with your guides, tuning in to your guardian angel, to enhancing intuition……..On Fire. I have looked at, delved into, skimmed but never really really conducted a Deep Dive in what will be about 28 topics when I am through. In doing so, today, I can say, “Breakthrough”. Mainly with my mind and meditation. I changed the way I meditated 2/3s of the way through my morning meditation and, well it’s hard to explain, but “Ka-Blam”. Afterwards, it reminded me of when I was a child. Terrified of the water, couldn’t swim, but one day, around age 10, I started to doggy paddle somehow. It was exciting. My mom signed me up for swim lessons and I was hooked. Swimming became easy. Effortless. Now I feel like, Wow. It’s like I am actually exercising my brain in a focused controlled state. It’s incredible. In the past, I would normally close my eyes focus on breathing, try and stay as blank as possible OR mantras of Oms or my favorite, the 7min Chakra Tune-up on YouTube. This is different now. Like I walked through a new door of Light.
Anyway, apologies, as this went on longer than I would have liked. However, during my sessions though, I was guided to eventually share a collection of thoughts I captured on a four day retreat I took back in April 2014 at Canyon Lake in Texas. I just “got away” from it all. Just over a year after my Shift, I needed time to reflect on that past year and capture my thoughts down in a journal out in nature. Those thoughts brought to you via a WordPress site in the near future.